if the last person you dated said they were in love with you, what would you say?

I have never been on a date. If the person that I last had a crush on had told me that.....well, I would then know that I have either gone insane or have finally entered the twilight zone.




do you think your exes still think about you?
Seeing as I've never dated....i've never had to deal with ex's.




Whats currently bothering you right now?
The fact that I just got home, want to sleep and my cat has decided that NOW is playtime. Not only that, but that my bed is the playground and that I am the monkey gym. Althought he's playing with his new blue fish ball toy so that's kinda cute.



What are you currently hearing?
Torch by Alanis. She is my hero and my subconcious played to music.




When were you last outside?
about 10 minutes ago. I dropped off Aldo at work and then came back to my room to get ready to go to bed.





What was the first thing you thought this morning?
Why did he still want to go camping?! It was JUST pickles! He was going to KILL us! ........now i'm scared.



Are you currently frustrated with a boy/girl?
currently? no. but i probably will be again in about oh....8 hours.





Who did you last say I love you to?
During my lunch break to my brother. He's enjoying college and has already formed a little niche for himself. ^_^




Have a best friend?
More than I deserve. Starting from when we met: Christie, Kelly, Priscilla, Monica, Melissa, Marco, Carlos, and Aldo.



Are you gonna get high later?
On life? Probably not.



Who was the last person to text you?
Melissa. SHE'S GOING TO BE IN FORT WORTH!! In november, but still.


Who was the last person you had a phone conversation with for more than 2 minutes?
I'm currently on the phone with Aldo. :)




When is your birthday?
May 29th



If myspace made you pay would you still use it?
Nope. no, no, no deffinetely not.





Who is your number one on myspace?
Aldo. My current best friend and roommate and helpy helper.





Whose graduation will you attend next?
Heck if I know. I guess my brothers? Unless it's mine!!! ^_^





Would you ever consider piercing your lip?
Heck no. I'd probably get it infected or something.




Have you ever gotten a sunburn so bad it hurt to move?
Yes! This past June the church youth had a car wash for the congregassion and I got burned.




Do you toss & turn for hours at night or fall right to sleep?
Usually for awhile. Sometimes I forget how to go to sleep and then I start freaking out at the concept of falling asleep and then it takes me a few hours to actually go to sleep.




Has anyone ever hung up on you?
Oh yes. Even worse is when they leave you on the phone and walk away so that you're talking to yourself like an idiot. But, that's only happened to me once. Being hung up on has happened numerous amounts of times. From various people. Usually my parents though.




Do you have unlimited texting?
Ha! I have like barely 250.




When is the last time you talked to number 1 on your top friends?
Still on the phone with him. Dropped him off at work about...40 minutes ago.



Did you speak to your father today?
Not today. I should have though.




How did you wake up this morning?
scared from a nightmare.





What were you doing at 7am?
picking up my best friend from work.





Have you ever driven without a license?
when I was learning how to drive I guess. I've been driving without a sticker for like 4 months.





How have you felt today?
Tired. and bored. Work was boring today since we only had like 10 customers.





Is there any emotion you're trying to avoid right now?
embarassment. lust.



Have you ever kissed someone in a vehicle?
No.





Are you a forgiving person?
People have told me that I'm TOO forgiving. I suppose there is such a thing.




What side of the bed do you sleep on?
I sleep NEXT TO THE WALL.




Are you wearing shorts?
nope. I'm going to bed so i'm wearing things that I sleep in.





Last people in the car with?
Aldo.





What are you up to this weekend?
I don't know. I'd like to see a movie. Then again....I'd like alot of things.





Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe?
Yes. I'd prefer 'love' though.





What is something you like to do when you're down?
Watch a movie or two.





Do you think anyone's thinking about you right now?
nope. probably not.





Next vacation?
Probably in late september. It'll either be camping or a little get away trip. I'll probably go home for awhile in November and December. HOME!




Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
...............I honestly don't know.





What are some things that you have everywhere you go?
My cell, My keys (usually)





Who do you text when you're having a bad day?
Kelly. She's my shoulder to lean on.




If you couldn't find the remote where is the first place you look?
Under the sofa cushions. It usually ends up there.




Do you still draw with sidewalk chalk?
I would if I had either a sidewalk or some chalk.




Were you happy when you woke up today?
On a happy scale of 1 to 10? I was probably a 4~





Last time you laughed?
I don't know. Probably sometime today.





Do you regret anything from your past?
Yes.




If you could seek revenge on someone, would you?
Depends on what they did. As of now there's no one i'd like to avenge myself upon.




Last argument?
Mom. About my pets and how I should not have them.



Last beverage?
water?





What are you doing sunday?
Church, Work, Sleep. In that order




Do you have trust issues?
Not too much, but im not the ever trusting girl I once was.




Do you have a brother?
One younger brother that I love very much and am very very proud of.




Do you do your own laundry?
Yep. No one else would ever do it for me. Except my mom.



Is the opposite sex really worth it to you?
I'm going neutral on this.





Have any stalkers?
Not a one.




Have you ever wondered how seedless watermellons are, well, seedless?
Yes. I did. When I was little I thought that farmers would open them up, take out the seeds - then put them back together and let them grow and they would just kinda....mend themselve.





Who was the last person you stayed up with till 2am?
Jaden, my cat. He is ever present and willing to love on me.





Who did you last go out to eat with?
ALdo. I was in the mood for Chili's.




Do you listen to Incubus?
Every so often.





Does your little brother put your clothes on?
NO. That would be way weird.





Have you ever been in an interrogation room?
nope. I have a fairly clean record.





Have you ever been called insane?
Oh yes. But just for acting silly most times.




Have you ever been recorded on film without your permission?
probably. By friends or something, but nothing specific comes to mind.




Who is the last person you physically hit?
Aldo. he was pinching my knee, i told him to stop and he just wouldn't listen.



Did you know that marijuana is legal in Afghanistan?
no, i didn't. Why on earth would I care though?




How many people of the opposite sex have made you cry?
All of them.




How many people do you have in your phone under "T"?
1





Who is your skinniest friend?
Christie that size -1 little......thin person





Does the last person you kissed make you happy?
.........sometimes.




When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart?
Always.




If you had to stay awake for 24 hours, what would you do in that time?
Watch movies, read, play games, talk on the phone. Basic stuff.




Who do you text the most?
Recently? Aldo. Before then? Mel.




If you could work at any clothing store, which store would you pick?
Lane Bryant.



If you could go a week forward or a week backwards, which would you choose?
Forward.




Where was the last place you went shopping?
Target. wooohoooo




Want to kick anyone's butt?
Usually.




Are you missing anyone at the moment?
Everyone.





Why did you last cry?
Who knows? There's always something.





What was the last thing you and your mom talked about?
School, and work.





What color are your parents' eyes?
Brown




If you could get paid to do anything in the world, what would you do?
I would get paid to read teen fiction books. Or to eat food. Or to go on endless vacations. Or to take photographs for a living all expenses paid. Or to write.


Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Probably.



Do you have any relatives who squeeze your cheeks when they see you?
Yea. Just one. Crazy grams.




Have you ever had a "kick me" sign on your back without realizing it?
Nope. Had one on my cat though.



Do you know anybody who's got a "Chocolate" cell phone?
Nope. We're all broke.




Approximately, how many students are in your school?
Not in school.





What classes do you not pay attention in at all? Do you just complete other homework in there?
again with the not in school. geez.



When you are grounded, what are you usually restricted from?
Life. I'm not allowed to do anything but chores and be online. But, that hasn't happened since I was in High School. I used to be grounded all the freakin' time though.

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My job's going well. Just got paid. Am somewhat pulling myself out of my mountain of debt. Once i'm out....i'm out.

Life is going well. My brother starts college tomorrow and i'm so proud of him it's unmeasureable. He's an awesome kid with awesome ideas. There's alot of good in his future.

As for me? Well, things could be better. Things keep running through my mind that I wish weren't there. But, what can you do when you're in these situations right? I'm working on righting wrongs and once those are taken care of things will be alot better I hope. I can't wait to go back to school and start teaching. Then, I can't wait to start teaching and go to Grad School.

Sometimes I wonder if planning things out really can set you up for failure and a loss of hope. I had this whole idea when I was little of what my life would be like. I can't even tell you how far off the tracks I am from that vision. Of couse this was from the same little girl who envisioned herself as both as astronaut and a ballerina (Astronaut during the day, ballerina at night). I used to be full of nonsense.

But, life can come at you sideways sometimes. Just saddle up next to you and smile while you get the wind kicked out of you. Eh, Things aren't that bad. Actually, things haven't been this good in awhile. The haze appears to be somewhat starting to lift. I don't want to be preemptive about this - but it's true. Hope will be enough to keep me together and get me to where I need to be. LOL, for all I know this IS where i'm supposed to be. I don't know. Perhaps it's nothing but perception that's throwing me off. I go on myspace and it seems everyone is at a completely different part of their life than I am. Getting married, Going to Graduate school, Moving cities and getting JOB jobs, Starting families, having anniversries, being blessedly happy. All those people deserve it and I don't want to knock them down a single step. They're all really good people that i've known most if not all of my life. I pray that God walks them through everything and that they come to be more happy than they ever could have imagined. I pray the same thing for me. One day, it could happen i guess. No harm in hopeing right? Or is there.....

lol, i'm just ranting.

I miss dilated and zanzibar.
Ya'll were great.

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I have internet! wooooo!!!!

Alot has changed. I have a new job......because i've moved to a new city. Weird, huh? I've moved to Fort Worth in My best friends mothers house so I can FINALLY have a chance of getting out of debt and then returning to school ASAP. I am a supervisor at the OMNI theater inside the Fort Worth Museum of Science and History. It's fairly fancy, and it pays the best i've ever been paid. At this rate it'll take no more than a paycheck and a half to get completely out of debt. After that, it'll be lots of saving until I go back to school - which, is looking like next fall. Though I am going to be taking a night class this spring, and probably a few during the summer.

I'm actually going to be online alot more often. I am so excited about this, it's retarded.

:)

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The title is a joke and has no actual relavance to this entry.

I had a *crappy* week a few weeks ago.

My parents came into town. Usually a fun and fantastic thing as they always come bearing money which changes into clothes and food that i need. Except, they didn't know that someone was living with me. Well...not living with me as in 'hi, we're living together' so much as I had a roommate of the oposite sex that they didn't know about. So, I had to break that news. To my astonishment, they said i'm old enough to make my own decisions. They weren't as forgiving about my cat. I've had a cat for a year. They HATE cats. They met my cat. They warned me about the evils of cats. I'm keeping him. They were supposed to be here from Thursday night to mid-day Sunday. Saturday they asked me what i'm doing on Sunday. "well, i'm going to church, and i'd really like you guys to come" *insert hopeful smile*. "No. That's ok. You do what you feel you need to. We're Catholic. We'll just go home". Our church just split. Drama on that non-stop but it had JUST happened, the kids in my youth didn't even know about it yet, we were going to use this sunday's lesson to talk to them about it. It made me feel alwful. Beyond awful. But I let them go, it's their choice and they're beyond mature enough to make their own choices.

Monday.
I get up, get ready, head off to work. A little late, yes, but only by minutes. There's an envlope on my door. It's from my landowners. Grab it and head off to work (Barnes and Noble) that's the important thing. Before I go inside, I open it up. YOU HAVE 3 DAYS TO VACATE. In big bold print. They say I owe 1000 dollars. I run inside B&N and ask if I can come back because I need to speak with my landowners, something isn't right. "No, I'm sorry. You asked off the other day and we simply cannot be having this". "But, I have the letter RIGHT HERE. It's an emergency". "I'm sorry, you can't even punch in now and work your shift. Just leave. Please, stop talking to me - I can't even talk to you anymore without another manager present". I leave in tears. Elessar257 almost went in there and ripped them to peices. I went to the leasing place. They saw my cat in the window. Twice. That's 400 dollars that I owe.

Now, I have until August to figure out what to do. I could move in with Elessar257 and his mom, pay a small fee for renting out a spare room in the garage and get a job somewhere in Fort Worth, OR I could move in with a friend whom I love, but can get a little....annoying....once in a blue moon. But, she has 3 cats, a dog and it's a 1 bedroom apt in Dallas.


I'm tired of working two-bit little jobs. I want to finish school and I want to teach. I want a better job. I almost don't even care where it is anymore. I know which side God is pushing me towards. Perhaps that is simply the better solution. He knows better than I do and I should just give it up and allow Him to do what it is He does.

It was a somewhat lonely weekend.

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I don't want somebody to love me
just give me sex whenever I want it
'cause all I ask for is instant pleasure
instant pleasure, instant pleasure

You in traffic for all eternity
how could that speed be where you wanna be
say don't you really want instant pleasure
instant pleasure, instant pleasure

Think that all these folks get laid
do it 'cause the pay is great
what you thinkin anyway?
If drinkin coffee is your idea of really cool
you can't expect no crazy
chick to notice you just sittin there
dreaming instant pleasure
instant pleasure, instant pleasure

If you want someone a friend to be
guess you'll have to win the
lottery but till then repeat after me
I don't want somebody to love me
just give me sex whenever I want it
'cause all I ask for is instant pleasure

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I quit Cinemark. It was hell.

I got hired by Target. I got fired for tardiness. :(

I got a job at Nestle. I hate it, but it pays well and it's full time.

I GOT FREAKIN HIRED BY BARNES AND NOBLE.

I've been working there for about 3 weeks now. I love it. Except that right now i'm in the cafe and i hate it. hate it. I almost cried at work last night because it was so difficult. People who work with coffee amaze me. Trully.

Mom and dad came up this weekend. I loved seeing them but they seriously couldn't have picked a worse weekend. I'm sure that Elessar257 will eventually have some stuff to say once he gets on here so i'll give the abridged version.

Our church has split in half. By generation and by language. The senior pastor basically kicked out the Spanish Congregation because they were being 'charasmatic' and it was bothering people. It was a huge blow as this is a small church and not a few people are blood family there. Like I said, there's more, but i'm in a little cafe and i don't have all the time I wish i did currently.

Elessar got a job! It's a blessing and....it's also having some worse for wear moments. He's a security officer at a very upscale mall. In fact, the B&N that I work for is on his property. So we work together and take breaks together, it makes it fun to work near your best friend. He is bothered by my current cafe position in the B&N cafe, but he can explain that if he wants.

I kinda miss being on here. I'm thinking of re-starting the internet at my apartment and if that happens, i'll be returning i think.

That's the short of it. There's so much more that's happened, but i suppose if anyone is really all that intrested then ya'll can message. :)

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